Decision Time (Feb. 17, 2014)

Well, I have made my decision of when I am going to come home, after 6
months of contemplating back and forth in my head I have finally
come to a conclusion.

As y'all know I went to the temple this last week looking for an
answer to my question of, "when do I need to return home?"
A few days before going to the temple I decided that I needed to make
my decision and then ask Heavenly Father if that is what he would have
me do? And if my decision was not in line with his will to please let
me know that day in the temple.

As I sat in the celestial room I prayed and told Heavenly Father that
I am planning to return home a few weeks early from my mission, so I
can have time to see my family and get myself not just physically
prepared to start college again, but also mentally prepared.
When I finished praying I did not feel any impression that God would
have me do anything different then what I had just told him.
I continued to sit in silence paying close attention to my thoughts
and feelings, some scriptures popped into my head. I reflected on Alma
40:26 and that it tells us that we are consigned to partake of the
fruits of our own labors and our own works.

I also reflected on how dad taught me to never give up or quit early,
through years of sports dad was always cheered me on and never allowed
me to quit. No matter how bad I hated my coaches or teammates or
anything.

When I pictured myself going home early I knew that it was not
consistent with how I was raised or my nature. I did not have a
spiritual impression that I need to stay for a specific companion or
person to teach, but I need to stay for me. I know that there will be
no room for regrets if I stay until I am released from my mission. 10
years from now when I look back on my mission I will be able to
remember that I served The Lord with all my heart, might, mind and
strength and I will not ever have to have a thought that I cut The
Lord short of what I signed up to do by 30 days 30 minutes or 30
seconds.

I don't doubt that it is going to be hard to wait to see y'all until
Christmas, but I know that our whole family will receive many blessings
from The Lord as we put His work first :)

I love y'all so so so so so so much
Have a good week

Love
Hermana Kenedi Ayre