Patience with Myself

Hello Family and Friends!!! 

I hope y'all are doing great!!,This week has been pretty good.

Lately I have been trying really hard to push myself on my mission, it makes me sad, happy, scared and a whole bunch of other emotions to think that I only have 8 months left of my mission. I want to give myself to the Lord so badly out here and sometimes I just get frustrated because I know I can do more. But, I know it takes time to change and align yourself with the Lord's will.

It is a lot like going to the gym, in my head I feel like I can weight lift 250 pounds ( in missionary work), but I can't. I have to take it step by step adding 5 pounds at a time. I know I need to be patient with myself. When I read the scriptures I get so pumped and I want to go out into the field like Nephi or Alma testifying so boldly and having so much faith. I want to have an experience with all the Mormon haters in the south like Jacob with Sherem! haha   Ok, I am getting a little extreme.  The point is, I want to be a great missionary so I can show my love for my Heavenly Father and show my gratitude for all the blessings I have in my life.

Well, that is my life struggle right now, haha.  All in all I am doing really well, I love my companion and the area is pretty good, even though we are only doing 10% Spanish work. We are working hard to find all the Hispanics in this town.  It is pretty funny because we will be driving and see a Hispanic driving next to us and we may or may not follow them so we can see where they live. Then the next day we will go back and knock on their door.

Well have a great week, LOVE Y'ALL

Hermana Ayre